July 21

I've gained 8 lbs. I just want to die.

144

July 5

I hate this. I was down to 140 on Saturday, but I got really depressed yesterday and binged my way back up to 144. I swear, if I didn't know better I would think I'm destined to be this weight. Don't think so!! I just need to restrict, restrict, restrict! I know I can do it, I've done it before, (granted this is the lowest I EVER remember weighing,) I just know that this is not where I want my body to be. I'm not happy. Damn skinny people.

144. its always 144

I am drunk and depressed. I am fat and unhappy. I can't stop eating and all I wanna so is cry and cry and cry. Other people get to be skinny. Why don't I? I fucking hate this. I hate myself.

148.5

I really don't know what else to say, this is freakin awesome!

155.5

I know it will be up by morning, i've been eating all day! I hate when i do this! It was a fucking horrible day tho. I went for my TOVA test at 11, then did my MMPI right after that, got home at 1245, started alundry and homework and did both until 445! I hate the class i'm taking, its fucking hard and boring and i don't liek it! It made me cry today! Ugh, i wanna get to thew good stuff already!!

Ugh, i'm a fucking fatass.